1. |
Not OK
03:01
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This is the day that I choose to be happy
I will repeat these words three times a day:
“I am positively confident, decisive, and joyful.
I listen to my inner voice and I focus on my goals.”
Three good things happened today
Woke up and I wasn't in pain
Took a walk and it didn't rain
Doctor said that I’m doing great OK
I’m doing great
But I’m afraid
I’m not OK
Manage myself and I don't manage others
Focus on the things that I can control
Try to exercise and build healthy habits
Mindful of my body I meditate every day
Let things go and freely express my gratitude
Three good things happened today
Woke up and I wasn't in pain
Took a walk and it didn't rain
Doctor said that I’m doing great OK
I’m doing great
But I’m afraid
I’m not OK
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2. |
In These Times
03:41
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It’s hard for me to sleep at night
When nothing feels alright
Afraid I’ll never see you again
With so much left unsaid
Will I even get to say goodbye
Who can say
In these times
Life is strange
In these times
Life is change
Can’t believe it was the other day
It seems so far away
Will I ever go back again
I wish this was pretend
All I can do is say goodnight
Living life
In these times
Life is strange
In these times
You are creation and I am destruction
I'm a machine and I feel no emotion
I feel no shame in exploiting your weakness
You are afraid and I feed on your sickness
Life is a game that has only one winner
I'll be the one in your home eating dinner
Did you decide on the life that you’re leading
Are you the only one that you’re deceiving
Take it from me there is no hidden secret
The truth lies exposed for whoever would seek it
You are alone we’re not in this together
Everything living exists for my pleasure
I saw this coming there are no surprises
Your optimism is nothing but blindness
Your life of virtue is hardly worth living
Death is your end while it is my beginning
In these times
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3. |
August Weather
03:36
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I really don't enjoy this weather
Always makes me want to leave DC
Find a job up near Seattle
Working for another company
I am tired
Uninspired
No desire
Unrequired
I am tired
I am tired
I am tired
I am tired
Every summer feels like a battle
Navigating this humidity
Every year I swear will be my last here
But staying on this lease is so easy
I am tired
Uninspired
No desire
Unrequired
I am tired
I am tired
I am tired
I am tired
Sometimes I feel like an asshole
Living breathing mediocrity
Weekends spent with little value
Sell my time like a cheap commodity
I am tired
Uninspired
No desire
Unrequired
I am tired
I am tired
I am tired
I am tired
I really don't enjoy this weather
Always makes me want to leave DC
Find a job up near Seattle
Working for another company
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4. |
Oh No
02:43
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Your roof is on fire
Our basement is flooding
Action is required
But you perceive nothing
We’ll never retire
You stole all our money
The fires rage
And the waters rise
The rats are swimming
To the other side
There's no way
We’ll make it out alive
With our society
Of unhealthy minds
I don't know
If we will still exist
Or if the universe
Could give half a shit
Oh no
Your profits are made
On luxury graves
You have now been warned
Our future ignored
Your time is now over
We need to takeover
The fires rage
And the waters rise
The rats are swimming
To the other side
There's no way
We’ll make it out alive
With our society
Of unhealthy minds
I don't know
If we will still exist
Or if the universe
Could give half a shit
Oh no
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5. |
Nostalgia
01:02
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6. |
Sinner
03:41
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I am a sinner
I’ve been a sinner all my life
Won’t be forgiven
For the way I live
And how I spend my time
There are no demons
There is only human kind
Life without reason
It’s all a joke
And everybody dies
And I am trying
to make sense of all this mess
To do my best
Manage my stress
But I still feel depressed
And you are lying
When you say that things are fine
We have no hope
To be redeemed
Or ever make it right
The pyramid rises
Growing further out of reach
Capitalism
I surrender now
Surrender to the beast
And I am trying
to make sense of all this mess
To do my best
Manage my stress
But I still feel depressed
And you are lying
When you say that things are fine
We have no hope
To be redeemed
Or ever make it right
I am a sinner
Now and forever
I am a sinner
I will never be forgiven
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7. |
Nothing
03:40
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Rent is theft you can’t deny it
Put the landlords on a diet
People might just have to riot
I don’t really wanna try it
When I look outside my window
Wanna scream into a pillow
God is dead but we’ve got Zillow
And I’m afraid to leave the house
But I've got nothing to say
and I've got nothing to do
Yeah I’ve got nothing to say
And I’ve got nothing to do
Forty hours is way too many
Yeah four sixes would be plenty
Work’s a scam to feed the wealthy
But I need to fill my belly
Honestly I’m pretty lucky
Got a wife who really loves me
Managed to save up some money
Just happy to be alive
But I've got nothing to say
and I've got nothing to do
Yeah I’ve got nothing to say
And I’ve got nothing to do
Maybe things will turn out better
We will stop the changing weather
Everyone will smile together
Happiness that lasts forever
Do you want to talk about it
Maybe we can laugh about it
I don’t really want to doubt it
There’s a lot that we don’t know
But I've got nothing to say
and I've got nothing to do
Yeah I’ve got nothing to say
And I’ve got nothing to do
I’ve got nothing
I’ve got nothing
I’ve got nothing
I’ve got nothing
I’ve got nothing
I’ve got nothing
Something is better than nothing
Something is better than nothing
Something is better than nothing
Something is better than nothing
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8. |
Don't Know
02:40
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I am trying
To make sense of you
Don't know what to do
I am dying
For the love of you
I'm telling the truth
No denying
What we've been through
Just me and you
I’m reminded
Of the sight of you
It's much too soon
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9. |
Patterns
02:40
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Shadows
In my mind
Nothing
Feels alright
Patterns
Shape our lives
Darkness
Blocks the light
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10. |
Flight
04:52
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11. |
Outlet
04:03
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Cooking breakfast
Growing restless
Is this the best that I can do
Thoughts are endless
Leaving the nest
I’m afraid to move too soon
Work’s relentless
Fills me with stress
They will notice I’m a fool
In this business
We bear witness
So much can't be taught in school
Everybody says that you need an outlet
For your mental health while marching to the end
I admit this feels good to say out loud
But there is something missing here
I might just leave this on the shelf
This is tiring
Useless whining
Can’t I grow up and move on
Hear me crying
Hear me sighing
Won’t you listen to my songs
Do you like them
I’ve been trying
To leave something when I’m gone
Improvising
Sloppy timing
Sorry if I carry on
Everybody says that you need an outlet
For your mental health while marching to the end
I admit this feels good to say out loud
But there is something missing here
I might just leave this on the shelf
Ohhhhh ohhhhh
Pleasures of the flesh
Ohhhhh ohhhhh
Bleed me ‘til I’m dead
Feeling better
In this weather
It’s easier to breath this air
I was younger
So much dumber
Living life without a care
Something for me
To remember
Fingers running through my hair
I may never
Love December
Something makes me feel so scared
Everybody says that you need an outlet
For your mental health while marching to the end
I admit this feels good to say out loud
But there is something missing here
I might just leave this on the shelf
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Pat Absent Richmond, Virginia
Pat Absent is just happy to be here. But he can't shake his fear.
An independent
musician living in his hometown of Richmond, VA, Pat Absent is defining his own sound. Influenced by indie rock, dream pop, 90s alternative, post punk, experimental pop, art rock, and everything else that catches his ear, Pat Absent's music is the essential outlet of an anxious mind living in anxious times.
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